You know that part of the movie Dumbo, where at the circus, the women elephants are all balancing on each other, with the bottom elephant balancing on a ball?
I feel like that bottom elephant. I feel like i'm trying to balance a big load on my back and can never quite get my footing. Trying to balance between mom and wife, wife and maid, cook, chauffer, etc, etc, etc......; trying to get the kids up and ready and off to preschool, off to swimming lessons, and trying to promote my tutu business, and try to find a minute for me? My "me" minutes are now spent at exersize class (which by the way I am loving!)
But quite frankly, I feel like i'm failing at all of the balls i'm juggling. I have intentions.... lots of them! I have intentions to sit down with Jadon every day and help him learn something new, or do a craft, or play with him. Most days i'm lucky to get 15 minutes of uninterrupted time with him. Usually i'm having to jump up every couple minute to check on dinner thats in the oven, or switch loads of laundry.
Poor Avery rarely gets time alone with me doing nothing but playing. Now that Jadon's in preschool again, and we have 3 days alone together, I have intentions of sitting down and spending a good portion of that time devoted to her. But of course, my intentions are cut short, as usually thats the only time for me to run errands.
But its not just the kids....My role as a wife is lacking severely as well. Its hard to have a minute of free time for my husband. Even after the kids are in bed, seems like someone is always waking up needing something, or I have tutu's to make, or i'm so stinking tired I fall asleep on the couch watching our shows. Then I get annoyed when he gets annoyed that I dont have time for him.
My house has been less than appealing. Once again, my intentions are there.... to have a nice cleaning schedule every week. I cant keep up with the neverending laundry... sometimes its time to start the laundry again before I can get all the baskets that I just finished away. The bathrooms seem to accumulate a layer of scum overnight. The floors are never clean... as soon as I vacuum they are covered with grass or dirt, or crumbs, or tulle.
And then theres my business. I cant get a good chunk of uninterrupted time where I can focus on it. Sometimes I think it would be so much easier to NOT be a stay at home mom with a business, but instead have a job outside the house. Then I could focus on my job during the day, and when my shift is over, I could focus on my kids and husband.
I know i'm not the first mom to ever say that I feel like i'm being pulled in 50 different directions at any given moment, but sometimes it sure feels like i'm the only stay at home mom being pulled in 50 different directions at any given moment.
And why is it affecting me so badly this week? Because Avery hasnt been sleeping this week, and quite frankly, i'm exhausted. I dont know what her deal is, but she seems to be scared of the dark all of the sudden. Last night I went to her in the middle of the night when she woke up, stayed with her for a bit and tried to get her comfortable and settled in her bed again.... when I went to leave, she ripped my heart out by calling to me with big crocodile tears "mommy, dont leave me!" For the love of Nancy, how can I resist that?!?!
Needless to say, since I Havent been sleeping well, i've had alot of migraines this week.
And all the while i've been sitting here typing this, my son has been begging me to come play cars "mommy, its time to play." But I just had to get it out. I just had to.
Friday, September 30, 2011
Friday, September 16, 2011
While i'm sitting here....
....Eating my lunch, I thought i'd take a minute to blog! Its hard to believe we just concluded the second week of school already! I know, I think I say it in every blog post, but TIME IS GOING BY SOOOO FAST! I really cant keep up!
I still have to put clips on the top two, but you get the point.
I've become quite the DIY enthusiast! I've also refound my interest in clothes and shopping for them. I say "refound" because I used to love clothes and shopping, but then when you gain weight it loses its fun. Now that i've lost weight and dropped 2 sizes, i've found my love for clothes again! :)
Its that time of year when the holiday bazaars and craft fairs start popping up. I'm contemplating doing 2, but arguing with myself whether I can do those, and still keep Sunnypatch stocked, and still have plenty of time for the kids, the husband, the house, the blog, etc. I'd like to do both, but we'll see!
Next week starts picking up a busy schedule. I'm going to start an exersize class on mon/wed evenings! This is good, because then i will have more time for the kids during the day.
The following week, Jadon starts swimming on tues/thurs nights, and Avery on friday mornings. Also Avery's birthday is in just a few weeks! We arent planning a big party. She's only 2, she wont remember. I'm thinking that we'll do "big" parties for milestone birthdays- 1, 5, 10, 13, 16, etc. So Jadon's next birthday I'm planning on it being a big one, since my little guy will be turning 5! I'm excited for him, but sad at the same time. They grow up so fast.
This weekend we will be purchasing and planting a new tree in the backyard. The tree we currently have in the backyard is beginning to take over the yard, as well as the 3 neighboring yards. The tree was never meant to stay there forever because I knew it would grow into too full of a tree for that tiny space. I really wanted a tree there, however, so that we'd have a little shade in the backyard in the summer, and that tree fullfilled that purpose for us. But this year it grew like mad! So now I need to find a good tree that will grow tall enough for some shade, but wont become full.
And now i'm done with lunch, and I can hear Avery getting into something in the garage so I better go see what the damage is!
I've already got a fridge door full of Jadon's artwork from preschool! I found a picture on Pinterest (yes, my FAVORITE new site) of this: http://pinterest.com/pin/54982230/ And decided it was a fantastic way to showcase the kids artwork! I want to display their stuff proudly so that all can see it so they will know how much I love it, and how proud I am! So, I bought two 6 feet boards, had Derek cut them in half, spray painted them and added the hooks. Added a couple hangers to the back for hanging, and presto! A stylish way to show off their art! Our staircase has long been in need of something to fill the walls, but since the walls are two stories high, I've been at a loss for what to put there without it looking odd. Here is the finished results!
I've become quite the DIY enthusiast! I've also refound my interest in clothes and shopping for them. I say "refound" because I used to love clothes and shopping, but then when you gain weight it loses its fun. Now that i've lost weight and dropped 2 sizes, i've found my love for clothes again! :)
Its that time of year when the holiday bazaars and craft fairs start popping up. I'm contemplating doing 2, but arguing with myself whether I can do those, and still keep Sunnypatch stocked, and still have plenty of time for the kids, the husband, the house, the blog, etc. I'd like to do both, but we'll see!
Next week starts picking up a busy schedule. I'm going to start an exersize class on mon/wed evenings! This is good, because then i will have more time for the kids during the day.
The following week, Jadon starts swimming on tues/thurs nights, and Avery on friday mornings. Also Avery's birthday is in just a few weeks! We arent planning a big party. She's only 2, she wont remember. I'm thinking that we'll do "big" parties for milestone birthdays- 1, 5, 10, 13, 16, etc. So Jadon's next birthday I'm planning on it being a big one, since my little guy will be turning 5! I'm excited for him, but sad at the same time. They grow up so fast.
This weekend we will be purchasing and planting a new tree in the backyard. The tree we currently have in the backyard is beginning to take over the yard, as well as the 3 neighboring yards. The tree was never meant to stay there forever because I knew it would grow into too full of a tree for that tiny space. I really wanted a tree there, however, so that we'd have a little shade in the backyard in the summer, and that tree fullfilled that purpose for us. But this year it grew like mad! So now I need to find a good tree that will grow tall enough for some shade, but wont become full.
And now i'm done with lunch, and I can hear Avery getting into something in the garage so I better go see what the damage is!
Friday, September 9, 2011
Hello Hello!
So if you havent already read on wordpress, i've decided to stick with blogger for my regular blogging for now until i can figure out why my space on wordpress is getting filled up so much faster. But dont delete my wordpress blog ! I'm planning a project for that one that I know you will like! I'll let you know when I start that! :)
We've been trying to take advantage of every second of "summer" that we have, and therefore we've been- you guessed it! B-U-S-Y! Seems like every time we might have free day or even half of a day, it gets filled up with something. Which isnt a bad thing since i'm sure we'll be stuck home most of the winter with illnesses again. >:[
We spent another day at the swimming pool with the kids... we all love it! We went to the Art and Air Festival and saw hot air balloons glowing. We've worked on house projects. We went on the paddle boats. We started preschool- year 2.
Hard to believe that summer break is done and over already... i am still reeling with the thought that Jadon started school already on wednesday. I did great though, no tears this time! Next year however is kindergarten... so i'm sure i'll be a sobbing dope again when that time comes.
I dont have anymore time, but i've got a bunch of pictures. They are pretty much in backwards order (courtesy of blogger) and its a huge pain trying to rearrange them. Sorry :(
The first few were on Wednesday of Avery throwing a fit. I have to say, it cracks me up with she throws fits sometimes. :)
Jadons first day of his 2nd year of preschool. Again, backwards order. Here he's playing with his friend Ronan. Almost all of the same kids in his class this year.... 1 of the girls didnt come back, and there are 2 new boys, so this year is 8 boys and 5 girls.
When I transfered this picture off of my camera and onto my computer, i saw it for the first time, and i just about cried. He looks so grown up. My baby isnt a baby anymore, in fact, he doesnt even look at all "babyish" anymore.
Beautiful sunrise on wednesday morning
And here is our garage that we've managed to clean out so well! Looks a little messy because toys are all out and strewn aobut the floor. Isnt it great though??? Hopefully the kids and i can use it as like an extra room this winter.
And here is our garage that we've managed to clean out so well! Looks a little messy because toys are all out and strewn aobut the floor. Isnt it great though??? Hopefully the kids and i can use it as like an extra room this winter.
Another quick fix on the house- we took the "decorative" paynes (sp?) out of the garage windows. Another quick fix- we took the railing off of our porch... really opened up the porch!
Anohter house project- we paved the side walkway that used to be rocks. Jadon liked helping daddy.
Last day of summer soccer.
Art and Air festival
Getting ready to go on the paddle boats. I think this is such a cute picture of my little cuties! :) Love 'em to pieces!!!
Jadon has done ALOT of drawing with chalk this summer, and its really improved! Here is a picture he drew of himself. His people are all still just heads with arms and legs coming out of the head... they dont have bodies, but he has really improved still!
Another thing he likes drawing is spiders. And he figured out how to draw spiders all by himself. A few days ago he drew a daddy long leg spider, and it had relaly long legs. I think its cute how all his spiders have smiley faces :)
Another thing he likes drawing is spiders. And he figured out how to draw spiders all by himself. A few days ago he drew a daddy long leg spider, and it had relaly long legs. I think its cute how all his spiders have smiley faces :)
Monday, September 5, 2011
There you are!
Summer has finally showed up! God mustve felt pitty on my last whiney post about summer being absent this year and He has sent us a little summer! This weeks forecast: 89 today, tuesday-90, wednesday- 96, thursday-94, friday-92 =o)
I've been busy............. my typical excuse now for not blogging, but at least its true! I have discovered a whole new world of DIY! Pinterest has really given me a crafting bug (by the way, if you havent already signed up for Pinterest, you need to!)
Anyways, I have discovered sooooooooo many websites for tutorials on all kinds of things, but mostly i'm interested in the tutorials on sewing. Yes, sewing. I've never been a big fan of sewing. I just dont have the patience to sit and cut out a pattern... or at least that was the case when I was young. But now..... well, i've discovered all the things you can do with used clothes! Repurposing them for use as other things!
For example, this weekend I made 2 little skirts for Avery out of an old shirt of mine that I dont wear anymore and an old nightshirt that I bought for wearing in the hospital when I had Avery. My next projects- make a cardigan of sorts out of a black sweater thing, and embellish some of my t-shirts (although i'll have to go buy some fabric for the t-shirt embellishment project.)
I'm not sure how the cardigan will turn out... i'm not very creative, so i've been scouring the internet looking for cute cardigans to copy.
I've also been organizing. You'd think with as much as I organize, i'd have nothing left to organize, but i can ALWAYS find something to organize! I love organizing! It gives me such pleasure!!!! And once again, Pinterest has given me so many ideas for organizing! Its pretty sad, but I lay in bed at night and in the morning thinking about what I want to organize...how i can move things around and put things differently to make the house appear, well, organized and clean and uncluttered. My main goal is always to make things convenient for us, as well as uncluttered. For example, we have had half our shoes downstairs (the ones we wear the most often) and the other half upstairs in our master bedroom closet. I figured it would be much simpler and make more sense to have all the shoes in one place, therefore, I moved all the shoes from our closet into the closet downstairs in the entryway and organized them in there. This gave me the opportunity to organize the downstairs closet, and freed up space in our bedroom closet! Its a win-win situation! Yay!!!
(have i mentioned how much I love organizing???)
Happy Labor Day by the way! Derek will be spending the morning laying a little cement slab (where i'll have the kids put handprints in it) and i'll be working on cleaning up the landscaping in the backyard. I started yesterday, and I just love yardwork! Once again, i love decluttering things, and outside that means pulling all the weeds, trimming all the plants and bushes, edging the grass to make a nice straight edge.... etc. :)
Also, possibly a new blog project in the works for your picture viewing pleasure.... more on that to come later!
I've been busy............. my typical excuse now for not blogging, but at least its true! I have discovered a whole new world of DIY! Pinterest has really given me a crafting bug (by the way, if you havent already signed up for Pinterest, you need to!)
Anyways, I have discovered sooooooooo many websites for tutorials on all kinds of things, but mostly i'm interested in the tutorials on sewing. Yes, sewing. I've never been a big fan of sewing. I just dont have the patience to sit and cut out a pattern... or at least that was the case when I was young. But now..... well, i've discovered all the things you can do with used clothes! Repurposing them for use as other things!
For example, this weekend I made 2 little skirts for Avery out of an old shirt of mine that I dont wear anymore and an old nightshirt that I bought for wearing in the hospital when I had Avery. My next projects- make a cardigan of sorts out of a black sweater thing, and embellish some of my t-shirts (although i'll have to go buy some fabric for the t-shirt embellishment project.)
I'm not sure how the cardigan will turn out... i'm not very creative, so i've been scouring the internet looking for cute cardigans to copy.
I've also been organizing. You'd think with as much as I organize, i'd have nothing left to organize, but i can ALWAYS find something to organize! I love organizing! It gives me such pleasure!!!! And once again, Pinterest has given me so many ideas for organizing! Its pretty sad, but I lay in bed at night and in the morning thinking about what I want to organize...how i can move things around and put things differently to make the house appear, well, organized and clean and uncluttered. My main goal is always to make things convenient for us, as well as uncluttered. For example, we have had half our shoes downstairs (the ones we wear the most often) and the other half upstairs in our master bedroom closet. I figured it would be much simpler and make more sense to have all the shoes in one place, therefore, I moved all the shoes from our closet into the closet downstairs in the entryway and organized them in there. This gave me the opportunity to organize the downstairs closet, and freed up space in our bedroom closet! Its a win-win situation! Yay!!!
(have i mentioned how much I love organizing???)
Happy Labor Day by the way! Derek will be spending the morning laying a little cement slab (where i'll have the kids put handprints in it) and i'll be working on cleaning up the landscaping in the backyard. I started yesterday, and I just love yardwork! Once again, i love decluttering things, and outside that means pulling all the weeds, trimming all the plants and bushes, edging the grass to make a nice straight edge.... etc. :)
Also, possibly a new blog project in the works for your picture viewing pleasure.... more on that to come later!
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