Doctor appointment

So this morning I had my follow up appointment with my OB. It was horrible sitting in the waiting room because all the women who came through were very pregnant! Made me jealous! I also felt a little emotional being there for the reason I was there.
Anyways, I basically got all the best possible news that I could have asked for! Everything healed up just fine, so that was good as well!
My first question was "when can we start trying again?" To which she answered- after I have my first post miscarriage period. Horray!!!!!
Next I asked if there was an increased chance for another miscarriage. Her answer was- no, not really since both of my miscarriages were pretty early on. And since i've had a successful pregnancy already, that definitely is in my favor.
The final question I asked was if there was something other than genetics-gone-wrong that caused my miscarriage- Since after a heartbeat is found, the chances of having a miscarriage drop to 5%? Her answer- The chances of miscarriage drop to 5% once a heartbeat is found AFTER the 8 week mark. Before 8 weeks, the chances of miscarriage are still higher. So this baby probably died for the same reason the first one did, and for the same reason that most miscarriages happen- chromosomal abnormalities. Again I urge those of you who arent familiar with miscarriage to read the link that I posted a week or so ago.

The doctor did mention that when I get pregnant again, in the second trimester I may need to have progesterone shots to help the next baby make it to "full term" (that is 38-42 weeks). We'll cross that bridge when the time comes though! I'm so thankful that I received all good news!! It makes me feel so much better about the next pregnancy!

Annoucement

Derek and I thought we should announce that we are pregnant. This was not planned... we had planned to wait until August to start trying for #2. We were going to wait to announce it until closer to the second trimester after the risk of miscarriage dropped.

Before you get excited though, let me finish. We are supposed to be 7 weeks 3 days pregnant today. Last week I started having some spotting.... for the first couple days it was just on and off, hardly anything at all. I was even questioning whether or not to be worried about such a small amount. When it didnt go away and got a little worse, I started to have doubts that the pregnacy was going to continue. By Sunday night I had fully convinced myself that I was going to miscarry again. I even started researching what the next step would be to get the miscarriage to progress.

Monday I called the doctor, got an appointment for Tuesday morning. Tuesday morning I went in, Derek got away from work for a little bit to come with me. My cervix was closed, and the doctor found a little beating heart! (Both very good signs!) I cried because I was not expecting to hear that there was a heartbeat. The baby was measuring a week and a half smaller than what it should have been though, so they sent me for blood work, and then again today for more blood work to check my hormone levels. In early pregnancy, hormone levels are supposed to double every 2 days.

This evening right after dinner, my doctor called me to inform me that my hormone levels dropped and that it was inevitable that I was going to miscarry again. Now I just have to wait until next week to go in to see the doctor again to talk about medication to help the miscarriage progress a little quicker. (Unless it happens sooner on its own) It can take several weeks for your body to realize the baby isnt growing anymore and miscarry on its own. I feel that would be emotional anguish and am going to opt for meds to help it along.

No, there is nothing wrong with me that I would have another miscarriage. My body has proven that before by conceiving, carrying and birthing Jadon. We are just unlucky. Once a heartbeat is established, the risk of miscarriage drops to less than 5%.... unfortunately this time, we are in that less than 5%. Maybe after a 3rd miscarriage we would start to think about doing some testing to see if there is something else going on.

I am trusting God with this.... He made something beautiful from my last miscarriage-(Jadon)- and there's no doubt in my mind that He will make something beautiful out of this one too.
I dont know if we'll stick to our original plan and try in August still.... probably not. I want to have a full cycle or two before trying again. However, none of my pregnancies have been planned so far, so the next one probably wont be either! The good news is, we have no problem getting pregnant easily.

I'd be lying if I said that this wasn't upsetting to me, or that I haven't questioned over and over why this is happening to me again. I know God has a purpose and a plan for my life, and because of that, I am at peace with this.

Anyways, I hope you will keep us in your prayers for a quick recovery- both physically and emotionally. I'm sorry to have to announce it like this.... Derek and I couldnt wait to share it with everyone a little farther down the road. It just didnt seem right to not tell our family and friends at all, even though we are losing the baby.

Hope you all have a very fun and safe 4th of July! Take care!